Learning to Fail. by Curiositykilledthe, literature
Literature
Learning to Fail.
How does one fail in a graceful way? Should she hunker down when trouble hits? Batten down her hatches? Or for what faults she can admit, Pledge not to hide and not to stray? Who does one turn to in a pinch? A friend with comforting lies? The ever truthful foe? Or with whatever given inch, find solace in your own replies? When should the falter be the fail? The first or second time? Does a limit exist? Or if be there eternal chances to climb, Let forgiveness ever reign.
I’m the fool who thinks loneliness is her friend. But she’s a bitch who watches me running through a maze with nothing but dead ends. A cold mage with hearts like hardened rock. But the only magic she wants is the only kind I've got. She feeds off my sadness my need to engage And tells my secrets to my one and only friend The page.
I'm an alcoholic in training,
I like to drink to fill the void.
For now the feeling's boredom.
For now its still a choice.
One day I'll be a failure,
filled with old plans and dreams.
Right now they're still wet paint,
Right now I've still a chance.
Some day I'll be a whore,
I flirt to feel less alone.
For now it's just my heart.
For now I'm fairly whole.
I think I've got depression
she follows me around
he hides behind the curtains
waits to kick me when I'm down.
My shirt says I'm with anxiety
she lives within my gut
he whispers in my brain holes
that I'm a worthless slut.
My heart says that I'm lifeless
she rarely beats all day
he stays in morbid silence
but I've got so much to say.
They trap me up here with them
so I don't get to feel
they'll say this worlds not for me
they'll never let me heal.
The Poem you write when you feel fuck all. by Curiositykilledthe, literature
Literature
The Poem you write when you feel fuck all.
Take my brain out of this skull
smash it with a hammer.
Just for something to do,
fuck me life is dull.
Place my liver on a plate
heat it up in the microwave.
Eat until full,
I hate the world today.
Crack apart my ribs
remove my beating heart.
Squeeze out the blood,
why does it feel so hard to live?
Nameless, Shameless Stories. by Curiositykilledthe, literature
Literature
Nameless, Shameless Stories.
A nameless shameless story
That’s all you will ever be
More to say I love the way
That’s all you’ve ever given me.
A cautionary tale to tell
A splinter in my finger
I have to say I feel this way
You are simply mate, a minger.
I’ll chew you and spit you out
As an example of a guy
Who took too long to figure out
The true meaning of goodbye!
I Could Let This Anger. by Curiositykilledthe, literature
Literature
I Could Let This Anger.
I could let this anger take me,
It would let you think you won.
But I’d rather choke to death,
Than to give you that much fun.
I would wish the skies to drown me,
Before I’d let you see the day.
When my enemies surround me,
And I turn and run away.
You inspire a hate within me,
That burns me up inside.
But I’d rather pluck my eyes out,
Than have you steal my pride.
I have gotten good at ridding myself of people who drag me down.
The near future is a question mark while the far future is a panic attack.
I have learnt that it is not so easy to do what you want.
It is even harder to know exactly what that is.
If people question you more than you do yourself, something is awry.
Jesus fuck is time flying by.
My parents have no fucking clue what they're doing either.
Everyone is winging it.
I find that terrifying.
Yet comforting at the same time.
Things that don't matter. by Curiositykilledthe, literature
Literature
Things that don't matter.
I told you all the things that didn’t matter,
The time, the place, the date.
I watched your face change happy to sad,
It didn’t mean anything.
You told me you would wait.
A pain too sharp to comprehend,
That’s how you feel right today.
I watched you sink down and down,
It was only the one time.
That was all I thought to say.
Betrayal that leaves you speechless,
I took your words from you.
I felt your hand turn clammy,
It doesn’t change anything.
This is just what I do.
Learning to Fail. by Curiositykilledthe, literature
Literature
Learning to Fail.
How does one fail in a graceful way? Should she hunker down when trouble hits? Batten down her hatches? Or for what faults she can admit, Pledge not to hide and not to stray? Who does one turn to in a pinch? A friend with comforting lies? The ever truthful foe? Or with whatever given inch, find solace in your own replies? When should the falter be the fail? The first or second time? Does a limit exist? Or if be there eternal chances to climb, Let forgiveness ever reign.
I’m the fool who thinks loneliness is her friend. But she’s a bitch who watches me running through a maze with nothing but dead ends. A cold mage with hearts like hardened rock. But the only magic she wants is the only kind I've got. She feeds off my sadness my need to engage And tells my secrets to my one and only friend The page.
I'm an alcoholic in training,
I like to drink to fill the void.
For now the feeling's boredom.
For now its still a choice.
One day I'll be a failure,
filled with old plans and dreams.
Right now they're still wet paint,
Right now I've still a chance.
Some day I'll be a whore,
I flirt to feel less alone.
For now it's just my heart.
For now I'm fairly whole.
I think I've got depression
she follows me around
he hides behind the curtains
waits to kick me when I'm down.
My shirt says I'm with anxiety
she lives within my gut
he whispers in my brain holes
that I'm a worthless slut.
My heart says that I'm lifeless
she rarely beats all day
he stays in morbid silence
but I've got so much to say.
They trap me up here with them
so I don't get to feel
they'll say this worlds not for me
they'll never let me heal.
The Poem you write when you feel fuck all. by Curiositykilledthe, literature
Literature
The Poem you write when you feel fuck all.
Take my brain out of this skull
smash it with a hammer.
Just for something to do,
fuck me life is dull.
Place my liver on a plate
heat it up in the microwave.
Eat until full,
I hate the world today.
Crack apart my ribs
remove my beating heart.
Squeeze out the blood,
why does it feel so hard to live?
Nameless, Shameless Stories. by Curiositykilledthe, literature
Literature
Nameless, Shameless Stories.
A nameless shameless story
That’s all you will ever be
More to say I love the way
That’s all you’ve ever given me.
A cautionary tale to tell
A splinter in my finger
I have to say I feel this way
You are simply mate, a minger.
I’ll chew you and spit you out
As an example of a guy
Who took too long to figure out
The true meaning of goodbye!
I Could Let This Anger. by Curiositykilledthe, literature
Literature
I Could Let This Anger.
I could let this anger take me,
It would let you think you won.
But I’d rather choke to death,
Than to give you that much fun.
I would wish the skies to drown me,
Before I’d let you see the day.
When my enemies surround me,
And I turn and run away.
You inspire a hate within me,
That burns me up inside.
But I’d rather pluck my eyes out,
Than have you steal my pride.
I have gotten good at ridding myself of people who drag me down.
The near future is a question mark while the far future is a panic attack.
I have learnt that it is not so easy to do what you want.
It is even harder to know exactly what that is.
If people question you more than you do yourself, something is awry.
Jesus fuck is time flying by.
My parents have no fucking clue what they're doing either.
Everyone is winging it.
I find that terrifying.
Yet comforting at the same time.
Things that don't matter. by Curiositykilledthe, literature
Literature
Things that don't matter.
I told you all the things that didn’t matter,
The time, the place, the date.
I watched your face change happy to sad,
It didn’t mean anything.
You told me you would wait.
A pain too sharp to comprehend,
That’s how you feel right today.
I watched you sink down and down,
It was only the one time.
That was all I thought to say.
Betrayal that leaves you speechless,
I took your words from you.
I felt your hand turn clammy,
It doesn’t change anything.
This is just what I do.
Knuckles white
on a fraying rope
tied to what's left
of your silly little soul
while
War torn
Wicked
Wonders
at the bottom of this hole..
wait for you..
just
wait for you..
so
let go
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